A bump in the road

I thought the next time I would be updating my blog it would be to fill you all in on how our first appointment went however that is not the case. As I said in my last post we were expecting to receive an appointment letter in August to say we would be starting our final chance in October but as the days went by no letter came and I was getting worried so decided to call the hospital, thank god I did! Turns out whoever I spoke to back in March hadn't bothered there arse putting us down for starting in October and it was to late now so we won't be doing it until next year now and to be honest I'm not sure how i feel about that. I had got it into my head that we would be doing it next month and it's took me a while to feel ok with that but now we have to wait another 4 months. We do however have a follow up appointment for to discuss the last attempt I really don't know how it will be of any use it never worked so why drag it all up again!! On a better happier note it's hard to believe that in 2 weeks time I will be getting my husband home after months of loneliness and I can't wait for it to be over and be a family again! We have decided to take ourselves off on holiday and try and have some fun and enjoy our time together and I guess enjoy the rest of this year before we hop on the IVF roller coaster!! My next post will hopefully be more upbeat it's something i'm finding hard to be lately as everywhere i turn there are people announcing their happy news and tomorrow it's my birthday which is just another reminder than i'm a year older and still have nothing to show for it. All i want in life is for my body to not be broken and to be able to produce the one thing that most people take for granted xx